Josh Brown may never make up for the atrocities he has committed.
According to court documents obtained by SNY.Tv, the New York Giants' kicker admitted to abusing his now ex-wife on multiple occasions. These revelations came from journals and emails turned over to police by Molly Brown after her ex-husband was arrested in May 2015 and charged with a fourth-degree domestic violence assault.
In the documents, Brown calls himself a sex-addicted "deviant" who viewed himself as "God" and his wife as "my slave". The Kings County (Wash.) Sherriff released 165 pages of documents related to its investigation, in which "more than 20" instances of domestic violence occurred in the household. Brown famously described the incident as "just a moment," but these documents describe a much more sadistic pattern of violence and abuse.
"I have physically, mentally, emotionally and verbally been a repulsive man," Brown wrote in one of his journal entries. Just below that he circled the words "I have abused my wife."
In an excerpt of one of Brown's letters, he states his issues with his behavior towards women date back to when he was "molested as a young boy (around 6)".
"I have been a liar for most of my life," he wrote. "I made selfish decisions to use and abuse women starting at the age of 7 to fill this void. I objectified women and never really worried about the pain and hurt I caused them. My ability to connect emotionally to other people was zero. My empathy levels were zero."
"Because I never handled these underlying issues I became an abuser and hurt Molly physically, emotionally and verbally. I viewed myself as God basically and she was my slave."
In a document signed by both Josh and Molly entitled "Contract for Change" and dated March 28, 2013 -- more than two years before Josh was arrested -- Josh goes into morbid detail of exactly how he abused Molly. There are eight items listed in the signed contract, including "I have physically, verbally and emotionally abused my wife Molly," "I have controlled her by making her feel less human than me, and manipulated her with money" and "I have disregarded my step sons' feelings and they have witnessed me abusing their mother."
The contract also said he "viewed pornography on a consistent basis to manage my desire for physical contact." Josh makes reference to his sex addiction many times and in one email he wrote "I developed into a sexual deviant that viewed sex as a sport all most (sic)."
In one email dated May 11, 2013, Brown writes:
"I am sure there were several moments of panic for the boys and wondering if they were in a safe place with me. I am sure you were afraid to tell me how you truly felt because you feared my reaction. … I have struck fear in your heart and not love, compassion or friendship. From the bruise on your leg when we argued … to the zipper that caught you last April. I am ashamed and disgraced to call myself a husband."
Keep in mind that this is the same man that Giants' co-owner John Mara and coach Ben McAdoo supported "as a man, a father, and a player." The Giants have also acknowledged that they were aware of Brown’s domestic violence arrest when it happened but allowed him to play all last year and re-signed him in the offseason.
Brown was suspended for the first game of this season for violating the NFL’s personal conduct policy, but a violation of the league’s domestic violence policy would constitute an additional six-game suspension.
Whether the NFL will decide to take action has yet to be seen, however the Giants declined comment on these latest revelations through a team spokesman.
Source: SNY.Tv · Photo Credit: The Football Feed